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# Shower
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- Published: 2026-04-15T18:50:14.000Z
- Updated: 2026-06-03T17:39:16.000Z
- Author: Isabel Dorn
- Tags: Poetry, #Import 2026-08-03 09:59

*by Isabel Dorn*

and for you, I shall wake and wash myself  
with the guest-bathroom soap your husband chose  
and let the water erase every betrayal  
of feeling from my foolish face.  
I shall dry myself before daybreak  
so no droplet will dampen the carpet  
of this blessed home that can never be my own.  
you will never see the shimmer of first dawn kiss my skin.  
you will never see me dream of you.  
I shall paint my face in stoic shades of beige.  
I shall sheath myself in nonchalant gray,  
every layer firmly buttoned and buckled to conceal my form  
shapeshifting until I am brain without body,  
benign enough for your praise.  
  
and I am far too old for yearning  
but I watch you cooking breakfast in your lovely home  
and I, a learned woman, know not how to sate my hunger.

> Isabel Dorn (she/her) is a graduate student who uses poetry to examine the complexities of intersectionality and coming of age in the 21st century. As a Vietnamese American woman, she sees writing as a powerful tool for social justice and strives to create more visibility for underrepresented groups with her work.